tHere She goeS... AgaiN --->dewCe !!

FULL circle..

2006-06-30T02:56:00.000-07:00

On this blog..most of the time i used to keep whining and complainin...but not today..not this time.. some thing really nice happened in my life..

10years ago I used to live in this place called Dar-es -salaam...if u wanna see the Indian ocean turquoise, you must go there.. any way.. comin back to the point..

I had this realllly good friend -Vishal..we were inseparable...We were competitors-vishu 1st n I 2nd..Infact tis because of vishal tht I developed my passion for reading.. I was stuck on stupid comics before that..

He was the first guy I had tht 'special feeling' for..really looked up to him..respected him..n he was my best pal..

Then in '96 I came back to India.. lost touch with him completely.. we didnt even say good bye.. he didnt even sign my slam book.. twas so incomplete..

THEN 10 yrs later..there was ORKUT.I found this female who was in my class in junior college.. and while I was checking out her friends, I found this girl -Radha, who was also a very close friend of mine back in Dar, ..so I added radha..Scrapped on her book.. asked if she knew wat was up wid Vishal n poonam..She replied sayin tht she might have found vishal on orkut.. n I was soo happy.. I mean he used to be such an important part of my life..and we had just completely , totally disappeared from each others lives..

around the 23rd of june I added him on orkut..

on 26th june we chatted online for 2 hrs.. and then spoke on the fone for 8.5 hrs! we Just went onnnn talkin..didnt wanna keep the phone at all..the years just fell away.. we became the same old 5th graders..we spoke abt everything right from cooking to music to careers to ppl...to everything tht there is to talk abt.. we also spoke abt 'us'..

On the 27th of june we were together.

have U heard of terms like "inevitability" and "destiny"??

10 friggin years... and my life is a FULL circle...back where i started from..We started wid each other n finally ended with each other.. from ashes to ashes..from dust to dust..from the sky back to the sky..

he calls it "de'weed' " effect..

NO wonder we never said good bye.. :)

loll

2006-04-17T07:15:00.001-07:00

okie..
I must tell u a lotta things...
the last few entries make me sound like a frustrated crazy woman..
but am not.. crazy yes.. i wont deny that..
here a few things:
1. i am not angry... as off this week
2. I love music (dunno y i had to include that)
3. Music is a great communicator (Oh my God .. i cant stop :P)
4. I love ( :P... u can add anything U wanna after that...as many ppl and things U wanna... and smile... coz ure included)

strAngE reLatiOnShiP

2006-04-06T14:01:00.000-07:00

Do you love me?
Or am I just another trip?
In this strange relationship
You push and pull me
'Till I'm about to lose my mind
Is this just a waste of time?
Keep acting like you own me
I keep running
watch me walkin' out that door
I hear you behind me
Gimme that strange relationship
Never felt pleasure and pain like this
Something so right but it feels so terribly wrong
I keep holding on
Gimme that strange relationship
One of us gotta let go of this
I keep pushing and you keep holding on
I'm already gone
Do you love me?
We break up and back together
And I swear to myself never
But oh how you do me
You strip me of my honor
And I don't ever think I'm gonna
Break free of these mind games
All I'm tryin' to do is modify my plan
Cause I can't contain you....
Gimme that strange relationship
Never felt pleasure and pain like this
Something so right but it feels so terribly wrong
I keep holding on
Gimme that strange relationship
One of us gotta let go of this
I keep pushing and you keep holding on
I'm already gone
You keep acting like you own me
Like you control me
You said you never really wanted me back
Well maybe that's a fact
May I suggest a brand new plan of attack
And in defense of that
You're hard to crack
You're way off track
I want you back
I want you gone
Maybe I'm sick of holding on
Do you love me?
Or am I just another trip in this strange relationship?
Gimme that strange relationship
Never felt pleasure and pain like this
Something so right but it feels so terribly wrong
I keep holding on
Gimme that strange relationship
One of us gotta let go of this
I keep pushing and you keep holding on
I'm already gone

U wudnt know the difference . . .

2006-04-06T12:45:00.000-07:00

On the telephone line
I am anyone
I am anything i wanna be
I could be a super model,
or Norman Mailer
And you would'nt know the difference
or would you?
or would you?

WRATH

2006-04-05T23:25:00.000-07:00

Am through with all the self pity shit.
Damn ... i dont deserve that.
just had my first 'chat' with someone I thot i was in love with..
have U heard of the words 'COLD' and "feelingless'?... that would be an understatement. it was really a very normal chat.. but... I am seething... as if am gonna go with him for that friggin movie... he can shove the bloody free tickets up his ass for all i care... now u know how pissed off i am.. its painful admitting it but am treated like crap.. like my msges are the LASt ones to be replied to...

k.. this is wat happened:

One Idiot had free tickets to a movie.. and we decided to go..
2days ago I msged him the foll:
"Hi.. lets go for that movie naa.. pinka really liked it.. how abt wed or thurs?Ure busy?"

NO fuckin reply.
so mayb he is majorly busy.. that he doesnt even have 30 sec to reply.. he should take classes frm Sid on chivalry..That was the worst friggin way to treat me.. SO today wen i was 'chattin' wid him... i asked him abt the sms... givin him friggin benefit of bloody doubt.

THIS is a part (almost half) of the 'convo':
thedude: Movie on Saturday
dewrulz2001: ?
thedude: eterna l sunshine
dewrulz2001: k.. did u get my messege the other day?
thedude: yup but got 2 projects on friday
dewrulz2001: okie.. was 'amused' wen u dint reply.. U done wid the projects?
.......

CAN U believe??? WAt the hell am I payin for?? DAmnn... asshole deserves the bloody treatment he got from his 'lovin' deeksha..

THIS IS IT.. OVER.. AM SOO BuGGED I COULD SMASH THE SCREEN.

THE best of U... from me to me

2006-04-05T23:00:00.000-07:00

"Best Of You"

I've got another confession to make
I'm your fool
Everyone's got their chains to break
Holdin' you
Were you born to resist or be abused?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Are you gone and onto someone new?
I needed somewhere to hang my head
Without your noose
You gave me something that I didn't have
But had no use
I was too weak to give in
Too strong to lose
My heart is under arrest again
But I break loose
My head is giving me life or death
But I can't choose
I swear I'll never give in
I refuse
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
You trust, you must
Confess
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Oh...
Oh...Oh...Oh...Oh...
Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
The life, the love you'd die to heal
The hope that starts the broken hearts
You trust, you must
Confess
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
I've got another confession my friend
I'm no fool
I'm getting tired of starting again
Somewhere new
Were you born to resist or be abused?
I swear I'll never give in
I refuse
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
You trust, you must
Confess
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Oh...

....Foo Fighters...

watever ... AGAIN!!

2006-04-03T10:59:00.000-07:00

i realised something that temporarily alleviated my so-called pain.. if u know wat i mean.. i realised that people create their own hell.. all the so called 'sadness' and waves of 'loneliness' r just in the head.. just like 'fallin' in the abyss called love... See how one could look at it? its actually the most beautiful thing that can happen to a person.. U feel for someone beyond urself and ur family and ur friends.. U even become self less sometimes.. I realised that my normal state of mind is 'happy'... and am really good at it.. so why let some crappy elements of your life..(becoz of their insensitivity about which you can do nothing about).. ruin ur happiness.. and the funny part is that maybe ur 'ruined happiness' wasnt even ur instinctive reaction... you dwell n dwell and dwell on it... and think its time to feel miserable... and hence do.. let me be more explicit- I DONT like ..umm.. U know who... just DWELL n DWELL n DWELL... you get the picture??

hellllooo

2006-03-09T12:33:00.000-08:00

hiiiii...yeha ...am alive.. its been a lOONnnggg time.. today was a nice day...it rained..IN MARCH... really funny.. met sid after a month.. good fun..went to barista...saumin and his frenz turned up(Wat a surprise).. nice day... and a LOOOTTT of stuff has been goin on (or NOT!!)...dont know where to begin...so wont.. :) ... results came out..decent..got an 85 in one subject..hahaha.. SID topppped his class.. gnite.

BlassssT the GhettoZ

2005-10-31T13:02:00.000-08:00

hmm...i know I know I havent blogged in a century. . have been DEAD busy... Practs got over on Friday and have been comatose since. am listenin to my MP3 player all the time [ my frenz have disowned me coz of that].. I dunno what to write except for that the following things are happenin to me:
1] I draw crazy conclusions
2] I am actually becomin sensitive and I care..... (whoah is that a good sign?)
4] goin to shimla and delhi in JAN....i hope it works out this time.. ALMOST all those who count (in IT ) are comin'..
5] am listenin to MAJOR music..
6} and i gotta study BIIIGGG time...chalo bye...Until the NExt century.. :D

Foolish games

2005-10-15T02:09:00.000-07:00

You took your coat off, and stood in the rain.

You were always crazy like that.

And I watched from my window,

Always felt I was outside looking in on you.
You were always the mysterious one with dark eyes and careless hair.

You were fashionably sensitive, but too cool to care.

You stood in my doorway, with nothing to say,

Besides some comment on the weather.
Well in case you failed to notice,

In case you failed to see,

This is my heart, bleeding before you,

This is me down on my knees.
And these foolish games are tearing me apart,

And your thoughtless words are breaking my heart...

You're breaking my heart.
You were always brilliant in the morning:Smoking your cigarettes, and talking over coffee.

Your philosophies on art,

Baroque moved you;

You loved Mozart,

And you'd speak of your loved ones,

As I clumsily strummed my guitar.
You teach me of honest things,

Things that are daring, things that are clean,

Things that knew what an honest dollar did mean.

I hid my soiled hands behind my back,

Somewhere along the line I must have gone off track with you.
Excuse me, think I've mistaken you for somebody else:

Somebody who gave a damn,

Somebody more like myself.
And these foolish games are tearing me,

You're tearing me, you're tearing me apart.

And your thoughtless words are breaking my heart...

You're breaking my heart.
You took your coat off and stood in the rain;

You were always crazy like that.

Days Go By. . .

2005-10-15T02:07:00.000-07:00

You

You
You are still a whisper on my lips

A feeling at my fingertips

That's pulling at my skin
You leave me when I'm at my worst

Feeling as if I've been cursed

Bitter cold within
Days go by and still I think of you

Days when I couldn't live my life without you

Days go by and still I think of you

Days when I couldn't live my life without you

Without you

Without you
You are still a whisper on my lips

A feeling at my fingertips

That's pulling at my skin
You leave me when I'm at my worst

Feeling as if I've been cursed

Bitter cold within
Days go by and still I think of you

Days when I couldn't live my life without you

Without you

Without you
Days go by and still I think of you

Days when I couldn't live my life without you

Days go by and still I think of you

Days when I couldn't live my life without you

Without you

BUD- day!!!!

2005-09-15T23:14:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was my Birthday.It was one of THE MOST AMAZING BIRTHDAYS I ever had. Thanks to my Friends. YOU GUYS ARE AWESOME....mmmuuuuuaahhh.

14th september.00:00-
Some of my friends called at night.Axi, Deepi, Pinka, Rohit.:-D. Mosh TOO. :O
14th morning:
I dressed up and went to college.I found Deepi and Pinka sitting in the canteen and writing their HTO assignment. They looked at me...and pretended like it was just another day...nothing special. Then they gave up...[ the corners of Deepi's eyes had started crinkling up]and wished me in unison. Pinka handed a scroll over to me. it looked like an ancient parchment . All brown and withered at the edges...very professionally done. i read it..it was BEAUTIFUL. Thanks pinka.
Then deepi said.. "Lets go get our SFMO print outs." We went to mantra's [ my bag was with Pinka in the canteen]. Then we came back and decided that we'll finish the experiment in the computer lab. I took my bag and went up with Deepi.
Pinka came up after sometime and she says:" Sresh, you're not doing any work. Please do the HTO assignment. Right now."
Dew:" yeah.I'll do it. a Little later. see..am doin the graph. "[actually Deepi was at the computer. i was just watching]
Pinka: " NO. Dont waste time. do the HTO assignment Now."
Dew:"i'll do it man." [ thinking: wats up wid pinka?]
Pinka:"Arre Deepi.. tell her to do her assignment NOW yaar."
Disoriented Deepi:" Even I havent done it. We'll do it."
Pinka [ exasperated]:" Okie fine. But do it ASAP"
Dew:"yeah. I WIIIIIIIIIILLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!!"

20 min later:
Deepika was with sauRin.
Dew: " Chal. Now I'll do my HTO assignment"
i took my file out. And I started looking for the both side ruled pages. Suddenly I saw this hand made card.
Dew [ eyes popping out!]:"How did this get here???"
Pinka: "i dont know."
It was a card from deepika. Amazing card.thanx Deepi.

Deepi's card + Pinka's Scroll== SRESHTHA.

I was really happy. Then the whole "do the HTO assignment NOW "craze...made sense.

Then, i went and met sid. He dedicated a song to me..."she will be loved"... and the R.Js sang HAPPY Birthday for me.Thanx sid.

I was grinning from ear to ear. i could'nt stop.

Then, it was lunch time. Saumin messeged and wished me and said that he was sorry that he forgot to wish me in the night.[ That was a surprise becoz i dint expect him to remember my birthday at all. His "Birthday Chip" is missing. And I had made it a point NOT to mention when my bud-day is in ANY of my conversations with him this year.:-D]

Then we all had lunch. It was time for practs. Then guess wat! Practs got cancelled. [:D ] Deepi and I went to the canteen. Pinka had practs. though.Deepi and I were chattin away to GLLLLLLLLLLOOOORYYYYY.

Then she was like she has to meet Preyank. So she went off. I was waiting for pinka to finish her practs.
I was standing by the window and staring out. Some more people came and wished me.
Nishit called. HE had forgotten that it was my birthday. HE was THE BIRTH DAY GURU.

I was kind of bugged with saumin. At the back of my mind, I was wishing he would atleast CALL me once.and say something nice. May be even ask how my day was going.That's what looking out of the window does to your brain.

Deepi was NOT TO BE SEEN. Finally Pinkas practs got over. But she came out looking apologetically at me.
she goes like: " Am really sorry sresh. I HAVE TO go for the IEEE meeting today."
I winced. "Ummmm....okie. I'll wait around. WHERE is Deepi???"
I had already waited for I dont know HOW MANY hours. Sid , Rohit mayu...NONE of them were around.
Then Pinka gets a call from "BHAVYA" and shes like she'll be at the meeting ASAP.
Rohit called at the same time. He was supposed to meet me at the 2nd floor.
i waited And I waited and i waited. He was'nt any where in site. By then I was frustrated.

I went to the canteen. met sauRin. started complainin to him about how my friends have ditched me.
Then after eternity, rohit and mayu came down.they took me to shoppers. And bought an amazzzzzzzziiiing top for me.

Then we went to my place.
My mom opened the door:
Mom:" Where are all your friends?? Just these 2??"
Dew:" i dont know where all my friends are!! I have to calll them all up now."
Grumping.
There are some black arrows on the floor.
mom [pointing a the arrows]:" What ARE these things?"
I look at them and think that its my sisters brain child.
I follow THE "TRAIL". And end up in my room.WHOAHHHH!!! THERE WERE STREAMERS AND A FEW BALLOONS ALL OVER THE WALLS. MY ROOM WAS TOTALLY DECORATED.!!!
AND THEN...SID,PINKA AND DEEPI CAME INTO THE ROOM AND SAID:"SSSSURRRRRRPPPPPPPPPRIIIIIIIIIISSSSSSSEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

anD my reaction was captured and frozen on film forever. :-D

I opened my presents. Pinka and Deepi gave me a FABULOUS skirt from FAB INDIA. and the sccaaaarrryyyy part is that....the top [that I chose as a present frm sid, rohit and mayuri] went PERRRFECCCTLYYY with the skirt. and NO ONe had ANY idea about what the other had bought.

Then i cut the cake. we hogged on pizzas. lemon tea. laughed lke hell.
Saumin called. i gave him a short story on what had happened untill then. I said i'd call him back.
Then we clicked some snaps and everyone went home.
I had a long talk with my mom. And then I called saumin up. HE was at Jude's. Said he'll call me back. I went online and chatted with sid some more.

23:55-
Dew thinks :" i hope he calls back. It will be a perfect ending to a perfect birthday"
23:56-
Cell rings. I think its pinka. Its actually saumin.

I told him EVVVEEEEERRRRYYY thing that happened that day.Suddenly the line got cut. I called again. His battery was low.
Dew:" Is this ure old cell or ur older cell?"
shah:" its actually RIDHI"S SPARE CELL."
Dew:" WOWWWWW, c'mon saumin!! Ridhi and all!!"
then i told him about how I think tht she likes him and how he should marry her coz:
1. both are jains
2. Both are vegetarians
3. Both are religious
saumin:" no. I dont like her."
Then we got talkin and we happened to talk about the cell that he planned to buy. For 13 grand.so I told him this:
dew:" ure dad will buy the cell for you naa?"
shah:" yeah obviously. Who else will buy it for me?"
dew:" Okie! so I have a great Idea."
Dew:"u tell ure dad that you have a VERY poor friend.[me].And tht he should plz plz plz plz plz plz buy her a nice new cell. like you."
shah:" Arre why should my dad buy U a cell? pray that I get a good job in the campus interview. I'll only buy you a cell naa.!"
Dew:" ya or what?"
Dew:" Okie!!! Am HAPPY!!"
And then we spoke about a million other things.....a LONNNGGG convo.

A PERFECT ENDING TO A PERFECT BIRTHDAY!! :-D

am mature...I swear!!

2005-09-09T16:09:00.000-07:00

whats gr8 bout 2005??...u'll die as u lived in a flash of a blade..in a corner 4got by no1 says:

btw ..did u get over tht guy u had a crush on ??

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
aahhh

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
tht bummer

whats gr8 bout 2005??...u'll die as u lived in a flash of a blade..in a corner 4got by no1 says:
wht happnd

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
I dont kno. but as of the last month- yes. i havnt seen him

whats gr8 bout 2005??...u'll die as u lived in a flash of a blade..in a corner 4got by no1 says:
oh ..well ..things always happn for d best ..may be he aint gd enuf

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
well,

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
We both dint really see much of each other this last sem

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
i used to b the one callin him most of the time

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
then one day i got buggd and quit

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
hes agud guy.

whats gr8 bout 2005??...u'll die as u lived in a flash of a blade..in a corner 4got by no1 says:
yea well if ppl behave indifferently towards u ...i think u shud get a move on....look whooz talkin here .... i shud b movin on too

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
but i guess its all for the best

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
hehe

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
i swear

whats gr8 bout 2005??...u'll die as u lived in a flash of a blade..in a corner 4got by no1 says:
haha

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
sooo

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
this vacation, communication with him was minimal

whats gr8 bout 2005??...u'll die as u lived in a flash of a blade..in a corner 4got by no1 says:
u were outta town too

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
yeah

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
tht made things easier

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
hes s'posd to b in matheran now

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
and I dont wast more than 2 min thinkin abt him each day

whats gr8 bout 2005??...u'll die as u lived in a flash of a blade..in a corner 4got by no1 says:
thts good

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:l
ike i was sayin- hes a gud guy. but not necessarily meant for me.

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
hence I am happier now

whats gr8 bout 2005??...u'll die as u lived in a flash of a blade..in a corner 4got by no1 says:
u seem to b handling this gr8

whats gr8 bout 2005??...u'll die as u lived in a flash of a blade..in a corner 4got by no1 says:
how do u do it

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
as off now ----yes

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
its damn tuff.

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
I mean to really get over one guy, U really need a replacement

whats gr8 bout 2005??...u'll die as u lived in a flash of a blade..in a corner 4got by no1 says:
tell me bout it

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
for total closure

whats gr8 bout 2005??...u'll die as u lived in a flash of a blade..in a corner 4got by no1 says:
ya ryt ....this plan bak fired for me ....mosh was a replacement for me too

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
Oh really?

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
for whom?

whats gr8 bout 2005??...u'll die as u lived in a flash of a blade..in a corner 4got by no1 says:
dammit ....i need a replacement for the replacement

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
LOL

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
sumchic in ur coll- jaihind?

whats gr8 bout 2005??...u'll die as u lived in a flash of a blade..in a corner 4got by no1 says:
sum 1 from school

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
OHHH myy

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
which skool?

whats gr8 bout 2005??...u'll die as u lived in a flash of a blade..in a corner 4got by no1 says:
see....im kinda stupidly teancious

nowhats gr8 bout 2005??...u'll die as u lived in a flash of a blade..in a corner 4got by no1 says:
these things dont turn out well

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
am very amazed tht a GUY , of all the species , can hold on for sooo long

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
yes, I'll bet

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
they neva turn out wel for me either

whats gr8 bout 2005??...u'll die as u lived in a flash of a blade..in a corner 4got by no1 says:
well...i d end i think the gal has lost out

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
k
When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
for how long dija like her?

whats gr8 bout 2005??...u'll die as u lived in a flash of a blade..in a corner 4got by no1 says:
frm end of ninth std

whats gr8 bout 2005??...u'll die as u lived in a flash of a blade..in a corner 4got by no1 says:
till i found a 'replacement'

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
oh cool

whats gr8 bout 2005??...u'll die as u lived in a flash of a blade..in a corner 4got by no1 says:
dammit this reeely sux

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
my my

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
no no

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
a lotta guys I kno just cant LET go.. so ure not the only one

whats gr8 bout 2005??...u'll die as u lived in a flash of a blade..in a corner 4got by no1 says:
gd to knw tht im normal ...but if tht is supposd to b gd y do i always fail

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
its NOT "failure"

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
maay be u're lookin for love in all the wrong places

whats gr8 bout 2005??...u'll die as u lived in a flash of a blade..in a corner 4got by no1 says:
well ....i hv no clue bout wher the right place is ?....wht wud b the right place

whats gr8 bout 2005??...u'll die as u lived in a flash of a blade..in a corner 4got by no1 says:
u mean ...the choice of the gal is wrong????

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
nope

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
okie tell me watcha lookin for in ure gal?

whats gr8 bout 2005??...u'll die as u lived in a flash of a blade..in a corner 4got by no1 says:
i got my mistake....i think

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
tell me wat kind?

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
go on

whats gr8 bout 2005??...u'll die as u lived in a flash of a blade..in a corner 4got by no1 says:
well she shud b ...lively ..carin....very candid..loyal of course....decently good lookin...

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
and she shud like u aswell rite?

whats gr8 bout 2005??...u'll die as u lived in a flash of a blade..in a corner 4got by no1 says:
thts wht my mistake is

whats gr8 bout 2005??...u'll die as u lived in a flash of a blade..in a corner 4got by no1 says:
but thn....if i wait till tht happens ....i dunno how old i'll b

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
dont worry,

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
she'll b rite around the corner

whats gr8 bout 2005??...u'll die as u lived in a flash of a blade..in a corner 4got by no1 says:
....thts a very optimistic approach u got ther

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
hehe

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
and am rite abt it too

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
women are very diff frm men

whats gr8 bout 2005??...u'll die as u lived in a flash of a blade..in a corner 4got by no1 says:
so it means tht only if a gal likes me i got a chance wid her ...cant tht b induced

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
sure

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
u can charm her with who u are

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
and then if she doesnt reciprocate to tht, then dont waste u're time

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
someone who doesnt appreciate who u are, doesnt deserve U

Whats gr8 bout 2005??...u'll die as u lived in a flash of a blade..in a corner 4got by no1 says:
yeah ....thts plausible...sometyms the trickiest situations hv elegantly simple solution

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
yeah

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
and besides, every female has an entirely different picture of her "dream guy"

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
so u mite just perfectly fit someones dreams

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
so ther U have ure gal

whats gr8 bout 2005??...u'll die as u lived in a flash of a blade..in a corner 4got by no1 says:
hmmm....tht duz sounds encouragin

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
hehe

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
so dont lose hope

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
another question...

whats gr8 bout 2005??...u'll die as u lived in a flash of a blade..in a corner 4got by no1 says:
yea i wont .....ure an immense help

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
Y exactly are u holdin on to mosh?

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
no prob

whats gr8 bout 2005??...u'll die as u lived in a flash of a blade..in a corner 4got by no1 says:
well.......

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
are u holdin on coz of the lil hope in ure heart tht sumday she mite just turn around and want u?

whats gr8 bout 2005??...u'll die as u lived in a flash of a blade..in a corner 4got by no1 says:
tht is ryt

whats gr8 bout 2005??...u'll die as u lived in a flash of a blade..in a corner 4got by no1 says:
tht duznt happn ryt?

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
well then, the "sumday" is too late for her then

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:its not like it doesnt happen. but u cant wait for sum1 forever.

whats gr8 bout 2005??...u'll die as u lived in a flash of a blade..in a corner 4got by no1 says:
hey ...ure absolutely ryt ....u cud b a coach u knw

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
wat will happen to all the galz who are veing for ure attention then?

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
hehe

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
thanx

whats gr8 bout 2005??...u'll die as u lived in a flash of a blade..in a corner 4got by no1 says:
ok i dunno bout ne gals waitin....but u sure did untie some knots in my head

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
glad i cud help

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
i've been fighting those same demons for years now

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
and have reachd a level of understanding

whats gr8 bout 2005??...u'll die as u lived in a flash of a blade..in a corner 4got by no1 says:
ur gr8.....thts an understatement

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
thanx

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
now now dont embarass moi

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
wat r frenz for

whats gr8 bout 2005??...u'll die as u lived in a flash of a blade..in a corner 4got by no1 says:
hehe

whats gr8 bout 2005??...u'll die as u lived in a flash of a blade..in a corner 4got by no1 says:
now i'll help some frnds out too..wid ur advice

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
lol

When the truth is Stark NAked, everYONE Covers their EYES says:
now ure makin me grin sooo much all my teeth will fall off

Aaaaaadat...!

2005-09-07T19:46:00.000-07:00

Have you ever had an almost "purrfect "day and then cried that it was over? that you might never have that chance again.

do you know what made the day "perfect"? Just a lil attention. something she hadnt been getting in a while.

She quit readin the scorpio section in horoscopes. what an improvement.

She lay in bed. lights out. looking out of the window and occasionally staring at the ceiling. feeling miserable. insomnia. she couldnt shut her mind out.

thinking about the time when she was willing to even change her hand writing. just so some people would say something nice to her.

You don't love someone because they're beautiful...... They're beautiful because you love them.

You cannot make someone love you, you can only make yourself someone who is lovable... .

Love is not selfish, so Love is not being happy. It is to make happy whom you love, even if you are unhappy with it.

spy

2005-08-29T19:34:00.000-07:00

SHE stood by the window and watched them :

The girl was walking with him...where SHE should have been.The girl went towards her bike. He followed. They sped away. He was with her.

Curiosity KILLED the Cat.

SHE felt a pang in her heart. SHE could have told you the exact location, in co-ordinates, of her heart.SHE loved being miserable.

the girl was lucky. the girl could have him for as long as the girl wanted him. The girl was probably in his group for all the projects. They would spend soo much time time together.Talk to each other and share everything everyday.

SHE wondered if the girl had gone to his place.

WHO CARES??

Like I said, SHE loved being miserable.

A few mins later SHE was fine. SHE did'nt care anymore.. .

In Memory of a Schmuck

2005-08-13T17:41:00.000-07:00

"Sexy" and the face lights up the whole room.
Idiotic
Stupid
Crazy girl
Silly girl
One moment
Guess what
Fuckin
BAlls!
Sexy! what coincidence.

He says:"Shit ! i have a really bad head ache."
She asks:" U got drunk yesterday?"
He says:" yeah. Dont remember when i came home. I left my shoes ant wallet at my friends
place. "

She asked him," Tell me how U study." He says," Its inbuilt mugging power.I've been eating
almonds since I was six or seven. you should eat almonds."

In the drawing hall:" Pass me the Bazooka..
"What are you doing?
Mad or what?
How much are you done with?
Curb your enthusiasm
its cool to drink alcohol.
beer is relaxing.
I tried scotch today.Its mind blowing.
i dont need warm clothes. I am strong.
When did i say that?
You're the only one who sent me messeges today.
How was acoustics?
Give me your "Chemical" shirt.
The CD is amazing
Where were U today?
Hi how u doing? Reply on this no.
its like you go to a sexy restaurant and dont eat any thing.
Arrey!
I hate rock
Not as smart as me
I like karela
his eyes are not tht nice
the end was disappointing
I'll call u back.

All the things he said
All the things he said
Running thru her head
Running thru her head
200 km/hr in the wrong direction

The wall that she was building around her heart was complete. No one can touch it again. she
was hurting. her life was hurting. never Again. Until then . . .
No love
No glory
No hero in her sky.

its Closure.

She thanks alll her friends for helping her to get thru. She seldom thot abt him wen I was wid U
guys. Thanks Axi, pinka, deepi [ for ur scorpion point of view :P] , sid, mayu, sanat [sorrie for
buggin U sooo much], verti even.

She smiles.

MerchanT of VeLLOre :P

2005-08-10T20:16:00.000-07:00

this incident goes all the way back to 2003.

I was tellin all my frenz tht Axi has gone to vellore.
These were the responses tht I got...

Saumin: "hmm..Vellore is in Bengal, naa "

MOsh: " wow! vellore is in Pune rite?"

Googoo: " Ahhh...vellore...the one in ITALY! AMAZING yaar."

For all my blissfully ignorant frenz...for the last time... vellore is in Tamil Nadu... BTW, [wid due respect to sid and pinka] , was it a coincidence tht ALL the above ppl are SSC students? loll.. sorrie yaar... this snobbish ICSE student JUST CUDNT resist commenting on tht!

my frenz and I V/S the STORM

2005-07-27T17:26:00.000-07:00

Everytime I felt tht I was lookin like a wreck, I'd ask pinka this :" Do I look like I just came
through a storm and tht i am the sole surrvivor?"

1:30 to 3:30 p.m tuesday:

deepi and i were at MTO lab. We had to take readings at the interval of 10 min. We had
decided to become serious students [much to the chagrin of our partner Mr. Rahul Singh]. So
deepi said tht she wud put a timer on her cell, for more accurate readings. 10 min later, there was NO ALARM. so she checks the cell, and realizes tht shes put the alarm for 10 HOURS instead of 10 min....phew! then, we were distracted by the thunder and the lightening outside. And I started predicting the thunder. Rahul was thinking abt how heavenly it wud be for him to play football in tht wonderful weather. HE had already begun to call his frenz for a match later in the evenin. some jerks frm my class rushed in and said tht the trains had shut down. the teacher told us to wrap up and leave...hurray!!

3:45- we are Standing at the "titanic" and lookin out...everyones frantically trying to call
home...and IT results are declared.
Deepi tells me "lets walk in the rain a bit..then we'll take a
rick ." Am game! we're lookin out of the window and talking fluid flow.

I met saumin on the 6th floor. Their results are out. He motions towards riddhi..and they leave
together...am bugged.
we met sid on the ground floor , at the canteen. He said tht he'd stuffed his bag in to the locker. I did the same.

the Four of us stepped out in to the rain.Looking FORWARD to the adventure tht
lay before us...
Things were more serious than any of us had ever imagined.

Knee deep water, then waist deep..the under current...the BIG pile of shit comin rite at sid...

Am complaining to deepi abt how riddhi must have gone to saumins house..becoz of the flood.. I
really dont care except for the fact tht he never even asked me. You need a flood like this for
closure.

When we were crossing YMCA; its raining cats and dogs and were in knee deep water:
sid: "Wanna play T.T?"
dew:" Sure ! Am game!"
sid cocks his eyebrows.
sid:" U got bats?"
dew:" Nope"...* sheepish grin*
sid:" U got balls?"
dew:"Yepp".... *loll*
sid:"The rain is making U more looney , kya????"

For 3.5 hrs we are wading thru more muck...and talking abt more fluid flow ...am thinkin abt ways to increase our speed..using the water...
Sid and I are running in "slow motion". Deepi and I are duck walkin'. Pinka is struggling wid her
bag and her umbrella.
Finally we reach my place. We clean up...dry out..and then relax.
The most eventful day culminating in a sleep over.

2005-07-16T12:35:00.000-07:00

Can't believe tht more than half of this year is OVER...am in T.E...am gonna be TWENTY in TWO months...man am I grown up or wat! there's something wrong with the universe...mayb the earth is spinning faster and ppl havent noticed... i sure have... I mean, am goin to class ON time after all....:P

hari om [actually its shri hari...I cant ever seem to remember tht at first go], our HTO prof., has a very interesting hair line...[which I noticed during the lecture]...the top view of his head would be like a circle with a black band as diameter and another black region at the lower end of the circle.. and the back view wud be...a circle with a black outline...very complicated stucture..

theres this magic window on my floor...I mean when u look out of the window... U stop thinking...ure mind prefers to go blank...with the breeze caressing ure hair and the green tree...its beautiful... especially in the rains, the winter, the summer, autumn...damn..thts the whole year..!

I can tell u why ppl go insane!

2005-07-15T00:20:00.000-07:00

listenin to : Woh lamhey[acoustics]
Usual status when am listenin to this song- a sinking feeling at the pit of my stomach, a lump at my throat[sometimes], a thorn in my skin,an uncontrollable urge to just give everything up and eventually a few stupid tears when am completely overwhelmed. Its like , there's a shadow on the sun...

Status rite now- [NOTE: AM STILL LISTENIN TO THE SONG]..tapping my feet to the beat and EnJOYin' the song...its NOT killing me..no painful cramps where my heart used to be..am freee...aahhh

I know . . . I know for sure ...the life is beautiful around the world . . . I know ...I know its you...you say hello and then I say 'I do'... :p

I know . . . I know for sure ...bing bang bong bong bing bang bong bong bing bang ...I know ...I know its you...bing bang bong bong bing bang bong bong bing bang . . . .lolllll

heyyy....back to square one...!!!

2005-07-11T19:52:00.000-07:00

am back home.....Niiihiiice vacation . . .I learnt how to cook...jeera rice...bhindi....ummmm...daz abt it... I also learnt the latin and the greek roots of some words like podia (Foot) ,logos (Science) etc. Watchd a Zilllion Movies..... Coll hath re-opened...life is on the roll again . . .

. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

2005-06-14T12:38:00.000-07:00

[After a 40 sec convo] . . ."Arre, One moment...I'll call you in FIVE min." and she waited and waited and waited...its been over 2 days . . . . and she was still waiting.... guess he'd forgotten all abt her. . . . soon he faded out . . .she wanted him to fade out. . . [sometimes . . .] the worst part is being forgotten....oh NOO!! it was starting all over again.

But I’m not, not sure,
Not too sure how it feels
To handle every day
And I miss you love.......

It doesn’t mean much
It doesn’t mean anything at all
The life I’ve left behind me
Is a cold room
I’ve crossed the last line
From where I can’t return

Its been a while . . . .

Phew!!!

2005-06-13T23:51:00.000-07:00

my comp is getting upgraded.....actually, on sunday, dad was tryin to install our printer [awesome device] and the comp was "sooooo godamn slow" [faster than the college comps......but dad doesnt know tht :)] tht my dad said "get this thing upgraded. so the champs came at around five , and said "sir , it will be done in 2 hrs ...tops!!" At 10 , champ was still tryin to fit the 80 GB thing into my comp.....damn!!! So today he was s'posed to c ome in the morning to give it another shot .....IN THE MORNING...I repeat. I told my dad yesterday tht if the guy comes IN THE GODDAMN MORNING....I'll be there....after tht am out wid frenz......Its 12. looks like morning's NOT over....champ hasnt turned up. was gonna go for "Mr and Mrs. Smith at 1 wid axi. Mother stamps her foot and throws a tantrum tht "U have to b there when the comp guy is here." And I got mad...

holllliddddddddddaaays!!!

2005-06-12T13:30:00.000-07:00

Exammmsssss over!!! Finallly..!! am totally freaking out wid axi....beeen out all day ...hogged on salad [ can u believe am usin the term "hogged" for salad?? I mean its HEALTH food for christsake] Axis on this crazy diet and i was feeling like a total pigging-out-o-maniac ... but the salad was AWESOME.... diet foood rocks!!! its beeen music and food and LOOOONG hours of gossiping for me...am having a blast....yesterday nite I told axi this: "today , u know , nobody was talking to nobody....no actually everybody was talkin to everybody....i dint speak to saumin...."!!! and she was like :" ????!!" she stayed over and we were up till like 4 talking abt the world.....nihhice...

NO lamhey...NO baateiN....:-(

2005-05-20T00:34:00.000-07:00

The loud voice in Her head said:

"NOBODY wants your love, keep it to yourself."

And another tear trickled down her cheek.

Somebody once said to her: "You are a very special human being. Love yourself."

"Love I Beg you,

Lift me up

Into that privilaged point of view.

The world of TWO."

musIC is MY AerOplane

2005-05-11T00:42:00.000-07:00

I like pleasure spiked with pain...music is my aeroplane ....[RHCP]

I have been soooooo godamn BUSY [I sound important .. :p]. Well, I sorta started studyin...sems start on the 30th . I saw "when harry met sally" yesterday...wat an amazing movie....I really like Harry's character : cynical, practical, no false illusions, "realistic"...theres a VERY fine line between cynical and realistic btw. Most of the time you dont realise when u've crossed it. Being "realistic" sounds more mature I guess. Cynical sounds sad....people start wondering , what experiences in life have turned them into cynics.
I was reading this book...and there was sumthing abt a woman being like a wave [ not literally , ofcourse] . it was like, even wen a female is really happy, sometimes for no apparent reason she hits the pits...its called her "well"... and then just as suddenly , she becomes her old fun loving, happy self... The "Well" is to be used for CONSTRUCTIVE introspection. Well, tht seldom happens....wen U enter the so-called well, U DROWN. Thats what happens...the part about swinging back to life is true tho. So one day all of a sudden am like " what the hell? what is the purpose of my existance? what difference do I make? who cares?" and am just being cruel to myself..and the next thing I know ,am like . . . " look out the window..everything is just sooo beautiful...how can U possibly feel sad? "
but the one thing tht makes me high ....is MUSIC...good songs can really change my mood...they're like drugs ...they make me euphoric....only NO side effects... well, gtg to coll now."TRANSPORTATION AND METERING OF FLUIDS", here I come!!!!

itS been a whiLe . . . .

2005-05-11T00:28:00.000-07:00

It’s been a while

Since I could...

Hold my head up high

It’s been a while

Since I first saw you

It’s been a while

Since I could stand

On my own two feet again

And it’s been a while

Since I could call you
And everything I can remember

As fucked up as it all may seem

Consequences that I’ve rendered

Have stretched myself beyond my means
It’s been a while

Since I could say

That I wasn’t addicted

It’s been a while

Since I could say

I loved myself as well and...

It’s been a while

Since I’ve gone and fucked things up

Just like I always do

It’s been a while

But all that shit seems to disappear when I’m with you
And everything I can remember

As fucked up as it all may seem

Consequences that I’ve rendered

Gone and fucked things up again... again
Why must I feel this way?

Just make this go away

Just one more peaceful day

But then I go an fuck things up again
It’s been a while

Since I could...

Look at myself straight

It’s been a while

Since I said I’m sorry

It’s been a while

Since I’ve seen the way

The candles light your face

It’s been a while

But I can still

Remember just the way you taste
Everything I can remember

As fucked up as it all may seemTo me...

I know this pain

Can I blame this on my father?

He did the best he could for me
It’s been a whileSince I could...

Hold my head up high

It’s been a while

Since I said I’m sorry

~Stain'd~

touch wOOd :-P

2005-05-04T20:18:00.000-07:00

wat a brilliant daY !!! we went 'hitching' [ very entertainin movie btw]...then we went to satisfy the 'foot -ball- playing-dinosaurs' in out stomach .. then pinka came home and we listened to loadsa music...spoke abt a million things [ i love U guys :-)] and time whizzed by....now I really feel like studyin... and btw for the final time...i think I am completely, absolutely, finally OVER a certain shah. I mean i can actually ENJOY just listenin [ NOT getting involved or relating to the song] to animal instinct . . .I think i just clung on to him coz I was a lil hurt..coz I believed tht he had forgotten me . . . but he released me tht day . . . you can never get enough of what you don’t really need.... its nice tht I realized it [even tho it was for the 100th time]....coz i dont love him, I dont hate him...am just fond of him..and hes just my friend. everything is coool...food, heady music . . . good friends,gr8 movies and hot guys [ :-p] ..."touch wood"!!

you Bet!!

2005-05-03T06:20:00.000-07:00

"Feelin' Way Too Damn Good"

I missed you so much

That I begged you to fly and see me

You must've broke down

Coz you finally said that you would

But now that you're hereI just feel like I'm constantly dreaming

Coz something's gotta go wrong

Coz I'm feelin' way too damn good

For 48 hours I don't think that we left my hotel room

Should show you the sights

Coz I'm sure that I said that I would

We gotta make love just one last time in the shower

Well something's gotta go wrong

Coz I'm feelin' way too damn good

And it's like, every time I turn aroundI fall in love and find my heart face down and

Where it lands is where it should

This time it's like

The two of us should probably start to fight

Coz something's gotta go wrong

Coz I'm feeling way too damn good,

ohFeelin' way too damn good

Sometimes I think best if left in the memory

It's better kept inside than left for good

Lookin' back each time they tried to tell me

Well something's gotta go wrong

Coz I'm feelin' way too damn good

And it's like, every time I turn aroundI fall in love and find my heart face down and

Where it lands is where it should

This time it's like

The two of us should probably start to fight

Coz something's gotta go wrong

Coz I'm feeling way too damn good, ohFeelin' way too damn good

Oh, oh, feelin' way too damn good

I missed you so much

That I begged you to fly and see me

You must've broke down

Coz you finally said that would

But now that you're hereI just feel like I'm constantly dreaming

Coz something's gotta go wrong

Coz I'm feelin' way too damn good

And it's like, every time I turn aroundI fall in love and find my heart face down and

Where it lands is where it should

This time it's like

The two of us should probably start to fight

Coz something's gotta go wrong

Coz I'm feeling way too damn good, oh, ohFeelin' way too damn good

(I missed you so muchThat I begged you to fly and see me)

Feelin' way too damn good

(I missed you so muchThat I begged you to fly and see me)

~Nickelback~

HAppY BirthdaY...Sid!!

2005-05-03T01:15:00.000-07:00

hey sid, this entry is for you...today is Sidz happy wala bud-day!! The kid finally turns 19 today.... how does it feel , to B one of us??? do u know who i love playin tt with??? sid...[coz I come close to winnin sometimes :p]..hes has such an AMAZING sense of humour...am ALWAYS laughing wen hes around...check his site out : www.sidzpalz.tk
Sid, i dedicate this song "Yaaron" by K.K to you. Am sure nobody knows the song better than you......btw , sid sings REALLY well. . .tho he sings at a higher pitch than me...am more base. . .chal sid...enjoy thy birthday!! Hope you have a sexy year ahead....!!! c'ya online

aaahhh...heres another one...

2005-05-02T16:33:00.000-07:00

this one was in the 3rd sem . . .my "friend" [she's not really my friend] wanted my hand writing sample....to analyse me....I was sittin in the reading room...drawing "flowers" [ they looked more like shaded ameobas btw] . . .i was down in a hole . . . Lol...guess wat...even THIS ONE is called "wat ever" . [ WHY do i name EVERYTHING I write 'wat ever'????...mind boggling question!!]

God has a very subtle sense of humour. the gaMes He's gotta play are amazing. Sometimes , in life, you dont know what you are thinking any more. You get sooo cynical that EVERYTHING HURTS. You got tears streaming down your face because you BELIEVE that your dreams are shattered. All you ever wanted was a reason to smile, but you can't, coz you think tht everything tht went wrong was probably ur fault anyway. If you got that moment back, you would do the same thing; over and over.Then there is this ray of HOPE. Its so STRONG that you can almost touch it ; like its a solid , a physical thing. But, when you reach out to grab it, you can't feel it...its 'hope' after all....Get real!! This is how life oscillates: From excessive optimism to THE PITS of cynicism.
But, I QUIT. I totally , COMPLETeLY QUIT. I am sooo tired...so tired.. I surrender..I give up.... Coz NOTHING I do; matters.
Coz NOTHING I do ; makes a DIFFERENCE.
I DONT like NOT making a DIFFERENCE...
So i gotta run. Fly away somewhere. Anywhere. Who cares?
Its called "SELF PRESERVATION"

THE SCIENTIST

2005-05-02T04:01:00.000-07:00

Come up to meet you, tell you I’m sorry

You don’t know how lovely you are

I had to find you, tell you I need you

Tell you I set you apart

Tell me your secrets, and ask me your questions

Oh lets go back to the start

Running in circles, coming up tails

Heads on a silence apart
Nobody said it was easy

Oh it’s such a shame for us to part

Nobody said it was easy

No one ever said that it would be this hard

Oh take me back to the start

I was just guessing at numbers and figures

Pulling your puzzles apart

Questions of science, science and progress

Do not speak as loud as my heart

Tell me you love me, come back and haunt me

Oh and I rush to the start

Running in circles, chasing our tails

Coming back as we are
Nobody said it was easy

Oh it’s such a shame for us to part

Nobody said it was easy

No one ever said it would be so hard

I’m going back to the start

~ COLD PLAY~

VerY ApT

2005-05-01T22:50:00.000-07:00

"Wicked Game"
The world was on fire and no one could save me but you.It's strange what desire will make foolish people do.I never dreamed that I'd meet somebody like you.And I never dreamed that I knew somebody like you.
No, I don't want to fall in love. (This world is only gonna break your heart)No, I don't want to fall in love. (This world is only gonna break your heart)With you. With you. (This world is only gonna break your heart)
What a wicked game to play, to make me feel this way.What a wicked thing to do, to let me dream of you.What a wicked thing to say, you never felt this way.What a wicked thing to do, to make me dream of you and,
I want to fall in love. (This world is only gonna break your heart)No, I want to fall in love. (This world is only gonna break your heart)With you.
The world was on fire and no one could save me but you.It's strange what desire will make foolish people do.I never dreamed that I'd love somebody like you.And I never dreamed that I'd lose somebody like you no,
No, I want to fall in love. (This world is only gonna break your heart)No, I want to fall in love. (This world is only gonna break your heart)With you. (This world is only gonna break your heart)With you. (This world is only gonna break your heart)No, I... (This world is only gonna break your heart)(This world is only gonna break your heart)
Nobody loves no one.
~Chris Isaac~

One LoNely Day. . . a LoNG tiME aGo ....

2005-05-01T22:46:00.000-07:00

I was just goin thru my stuff on the comp. , and I came across this one . . .its called:

WAt eVEr

damn!! 23 days of this year are over. I think that I am the most confused person in the whole world. i mean I really dont know what the hell i want anyway. Sometimes i am totally consumed with a sense of complete loneliness and isolation. Its pathetic. I went for this trip and things were cool. i had loadsa fun ..... when i came back i was totally lost. four days of total freedom. away from home. always surrounded with friends. freedom to go and speak to him whenever I wanted. Even at four in the morning sometimes. When I came back, there was this glimmer of "hope" in my heart. Hope that maybe, just maybe, he cared about me. So i mustered some strength and I called him. He was sleeping. I thought that maybe he'll call me back.... to ask me "whats up"? but no....he dint... i was tooo bored and bugged to call him anyway. so i let him walk away...... Last year , this time of the year i was soooo happy. Some people i cared about , felt the same about me.They called me and asked me wat i was doin....now they dont give a damn......and 2 weeks ago this time I was at mahabaleshwar. dancing away... into the night. shit how life goes on...I hate the way those females get to hang around with him and spend so much time with him.... whereas i probably just get a glimpse of him.... and get to say "hi" and some other irrelevant crap. not that hes not my friend, but they're his present.....and I, his past....though i would give anything to remember every moment that I spent with him.... I dont think He remembers a godamn thing.

after I read this , i was very amused. What a contrast to how i feel today. i guess I just have to get my priorities right.. and the one tht tops my list is "STUDY HARD". lol. Btw, my schmuck did call me today mornin'...at 3 a.m ....lol...and he goes like "wat r U doin?" . . . other than Nocturnal creatures ,wat does ANYbody do at tht un-godly hour?? there was wat they say: "A spring in my step and a song in my heart" today. . .btw, the song was "accidentally in love".....blasting in my head......usually its "always" or "here without you" or "dont cry" and the list goes on and on .... :p